When I get overwhelmed or confused this is the mature way I handle it.
I write a pros vs cons list
I know, it's sad but it's helps me clear my thoughts and be objective instead of being irrational and emotional.
I'm thankful that He still chooses to use people as "simple minded" as me.
I realized 1 of 2 things tonight.
1. My roommate Julee is amazing (which I already knew) but she is a great friend and she is going to be an amazing person to have beside me for the next year in China.
2. God has an agenda that is so far beyond what I can see or understand for me and Julee while we are in China. He is clearly working in ways that I didn't even know existed.
My verse of the day:
Fear not for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God,
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous hand.
For I, the Lord your God,
hold your right hand;
it is I who say to you, "Fear not,
I am the one who helps you."
-Isaiah 41:10, 13
God is good and He is control. And I will never deserve His love or His grace. He is the constant in my life and I will ever fully understand the magnitude of His plans but I will do my best to walk in obedience.