I find myself frustrated when I come to right in my blog, I wish I could only have happy, uplifting, funny or entertaining blog posts. I hate feeling like a Debby Downer, I want to be a Patricia Positive (Show Hope Girls) But that's simply not where I am at this stage of my life.
I hope you hear me when I say that I am not unhappy, depressed, angry or an unpleasant person. (or at least I hope not, you would have to ask my roommate to get the truth on that)
But I am simply in the midst of a storm. A storm that the Father has allowed me to be in. I'm praying that God would calm this storm that I find myself in but I'm learning that God usually calms us and our hearts before He calms the storm.
Do I enjoy being in the storm? NO
Am I graceful at learning spiritual lessons in the midst of the storm? that's a big NO
But strangely enough I'm slowly learning to embrace the wind and the waves. Because they are orchestrated by my Father. And ultimately if it was His will to calm the storm, the waters would be still. But He's allowed this storm. And still I will choose to say
"I will bless the Father at all times, His praise shall continually be in my mouth- Ps 34:1"
Because in between the pounding waves and hurling wind, God grants His children with a peace that calms our hearts. So whether the storm is raging or I am drowning, I am not alone and I have found the joy in the storm.
*I sent out an in-depth e-mail of my last 3 months in China to my sponsors and friends, if you would like to receive please let me know and I will send it to you.*